Failure

John 8:32 And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free.

Back to blogging? Not really actually.

I don't really know what to blog about actually.Really. All i have nowadays are worries that really tears me apart. I came to a conclusion, right now, this moment.

I.HATE.MAKING.DECISIONS.

There, i said it. I've been thinking through the day which question should i choose for my art exam, i'm not even sure of some subjects that i'm taking for my BIG exam. My mom says i still have time to think about it but i don't think the same way. I find asking opinions really useless these days, the final decisions are yours anyway. They can't help you decide. That's what i hate about it. I just wish sometimes there's someone to decide things for me. I asked my sister and my mum the same question, "Have you ever felt that the Lord doesn't answer your prayers even though you prayed hard?", my mum answered and said, "Unceasingly pray, or maybe you weren't praying for His interest." I didn't know how to answer to both the questions. How often have i prayed? How did i pray to the Lord? And i'm back to the old me again. I don't know what to do! *sob sob*

I've recently came up with a time-table for my studies and yep, I'm not really following it. And seeing the trust my mum has in me that i'm studying really adds a load more to my guilt. Aww...i feel even more guilty now. O Lord, can you train and help me in my character? I really suck in keeping myself disciplined.

Oh, i'm meeting with my beloveds tomorrow after my art class!!!! Tee-hee. Only for 2 hours though. I'm sorry,gals. I really have to keep myself up with my studies. Though i'm not really studying yet. Oh well, at least being at home makes me more... able to study? *grins* I don't know why, but as we grow older, i find that gatherings are now longer in a big group, but just a small group. Yet, these small little gatherings are the ones we cherish and enjoy the most. Not that we don't enjoy the ones where a lot of people come together.The more the merrier right? It's just that it seems to be a complete different atmosphere and feeling. I guess that's how it is in life. The ways we see things are broaden and it changes everything.

Okay then, gonna sign off here.

Gonna blog soon. REAL SOON. Hopefully.

Psalms 119:105

Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.